Only TOUGH will SURVIVE

2011-03-18T10:12:00.000-07:00

A world without light... Will this happen? Seems this will happen when the world is going to an end. For example, the meteor impact to the earth. When this started to happen, surely the first thing that will happen is no power supply. People will start to evacuate to safe place. But will there be any? Human start depending on the natural light supply, the sun to regain power. After all, the meteor impact surely sill cause a very big natural disaster throughout the whole world. For the place that get impacted, it was like a nuclear blast or a atomic bomb blast. Everything will be gone. For the other place, the shock wave of the impact causes the dust to start flew to the air causing a desert storm. Causing the count of penetration of the sun ray to come to zero. This effect will stay for almost more than 5 year time. When the sun penetration was zero, rain start to fall. Causing drop in temperature. With no light plus fall of rain, all the living things in the earth cant survive just with water. Cooling effect start to take place. The judgement of God on this earth was finalize. No survivors. After all, will this happen? Who knows.......

2011-03-16T05:10:00.000-07:00

Another incident land on the Japan after seven year it landed on Aceh, Indonesia. Yet life was so small in the God's hand. People who are in Malaysia should be thankful for not being in the disaster zone. But who knows, anything can happen with a blink of eye. Let us pray for the decent and also the safety of those who are still alive. From what had happen since last Saturday, another warning had been sent from the God to the human to stop polluting the Mother Earth. As we all know, the earth temperature had been rises, ice at the south and north poles are melting at a fast rates, sea level rising, the thinning of the ozone layer. What had we, human done to the Mother Earth. STOP POLLUTING already. We should be aware after all these natural disaster landed as a warning for us. Why should we wait until we are the one who get caught by the God's eye and when the time comes, we would not be able to regret. Another thing that caught my eye was the prediction of the END OF THE WORLD in 2012. Maybe these was the sign of the world that we lived for so long was going to end. After all, all those sin that we had done to the Mother Earth, there was no way that the God would forgive us. But after all, God loves people who know regret and find a way to wash away sin that had been convinced. So, we as human should plant more trees and stop polluting the earth. This is the only way to make us still worth to stay in the earth and also regain the trust of the God that we human still can protect the earth.

2010-06-10T05:21:00.000-07:00

Long time didn't write my blog already. Feels like nothing to write at all. Just finish my three days holidays at my hometown last two weeks. Spend a lot of time with family. As what im thinking, this is the first time feels i was truely at home. The first day busy with my bank things, later on going around to buy stuff. But what nice was the first time i learn to open the caburator parts of my motocycle. It was my thought to open it since i get the idea. To change a bigger main jet... More fuel means more power. Hohohoho. It fitted very well and didn't dissapointed me. Runs on a 96cc engine, with a RX100 caburator, plus a lighter magnet, my C70 run at full meter (about 90km/h like that), it was facinating. But still, a motocyclist won't that easy statisfy with it. Still got something that can be upgrade. Back to my topics. The night before i came back, i already informed my family and my aunt that im going to treat them eat. The night i came back, we went to Chiang Mai to have dinner. Unluckily, one of my cousin can't made it, she was working that time. We ate a lot that night. It was a very nice meal. The next day, i went back to my villager with my family. Spend the whole day there eating, chatting, laughing...... One day just passed like that. Haiz... After dinner, i went back to my house. The next thing was go to fetch my cousin, Hui Yee that just finished worked at Muhibah Bakery shop. My sister took my another cousin, Pey Chin to the Golden Bean straight away. We will be meeting our eldest cousin, Sister Nee at there. Spend the whole night chatting at there until nearly 12am. After that, i send Hui Yee back home before try to limit my motocycle. Still, there are still something that can be upgraded. The next day, Saturday. The last day i will be spending with my family before taking bus at night. The whole day i spend it at home and just went out about 12pm to meet Leeh Chyuan who was working at the KB Mall. Hahahaha. Chat with him for nearly two hours. Disturbing his work. After that, i just buy some pisang goreng and went home. After that just took my dinner before go up to the bus. In the bus, i was wandering, when will be my next holiday?? Malay Raya i think.... Haiz... Forget about it. Now going back to the place where i belong to.... My life. Going to start new semester already, one year left before i graduate. Keep it up...... Hope my family always in good health.

2010-04-19T11:16:00.000-07:00

Life was just about future, for a better future. Thats all. This is what a poor people will think about. Not more than that. This is also what im thinking all the time. Some will say, life is just to be happy and live normally. i admit that is true, but have you all ever think about it before say it out. Without future, you wont be living happily. What im doing now is to create a better future, for the sake of my family, my destiny and my fate. I want to change it. Thats all i want to be. A necessary sacrifice is needed in order to exchange for it. What i want to tell you all now is what is in my mind. I have 4 things in my mind, can say is the most important. First, family. Second, future. Third, friendship. And the last one, love. In order to obtain the future, i must sacrifice two things. The friendship and love. It is impossible for me to let go of my family and choose friendship or love. Because i think it is not worth. I got what i need for friendship in here. I got my own real friend in here which will take me to brighter future. The friend outside there, they just can be a normal friend. Cause i think what i can get from them is just to show off at them. What for?? My friend in here, we are brothers with different blood. Friend outside there, just a few i can say is my brothers.... The others, just normal. After a few month i didn't message. I found out that my inbox was empty. I finally realized, im the one who are clapping my own hand. If i didnt message them, they wont message me also..... What for im spending time on them. Better spend the time on my study and my family. Usually, i use to think how to spend time with my friends, how to tackle a girl, ask her to go out. Finally, i realized it is not worth. What they give me in return. Nothing. Like last year, i went out with my friend in KL. I treated them eat, buy things. In return, i realized i get nothing. Better spend the money on my family. They give me in return, a warm house to stay, love and caring. For the other friends, a friend that i know more than i know my sisters. I wont mind. For the friend i know in facebook, National Service. I think not worth if i do like that. For the other friends, what i can say now is im so so sorry. I really want to close my mind to whatever thing. Hope you all understand. This is for my family and my future. I duwan more that that.......

2010-03-25T11:38:00.000-07:00

After mechanic material test, i was greet by a shocking news. A PC-7 had just crashed during the air show this morning at UUM. Woah... Another accident. Last was December if i'm not mistaken. Occur at Langkawi Airport. Still dunno the reason of the accident. Most likely is human fault. But all the things happen is in the God hands. We can't deny that. Just can pray to the decent. Hope he will rest in peace. After the f*cking test, just manage to do a bit only. I continued withe the Fluid project presentation. The presentation was quite simple. Me and my group member come up with the hydraulic pump. Prove F1/A1=F2/A2. Report will be handing in during study week next week. Forget already, this Monday is the starting of the study week. That means FINAL is around the corner. Still haven't prepared anything yet. Carry marks was not in good condition also, need to push harder on the final exam. Maybe starting to make up my mind this coming Sunday. Cannot play play anymore..... Wish me good luck in the final exam and hopefully can rise my pointer. If cannot also maintaining is OK for me already. Still i want a better result also, who duwan wor..... Right???

2010-03-17T05:46:00.001-07:00

Then 3rd day coming back here. Feel like nothing different. Just the test all postpone to next week. Next week start all over again my study. This Saturday will be my 2nd test on C++ Programming, plus an assignment need to be summit. Assignment havent done yet, the result come out already but not the one i want. Still need to be corrected again but stuck already. Haiz... Just now online a while, still i can't get it over on myself. Wanna compare myself with the other. How can i change this attitude. Why should i compare myself with the others? Everyone have their own story mar. Dun compare liao lar, won't finish de. Still trying to make myself focus on the study and not to think about all the things. What i have change abit is trying to keep my mind close to the others, even my family. Just use cigarette to make myself busy. Hehehehe. Still very effective than other ways i try. Next week start to make myself busy with test. Timetable for final exam come out already. Haven’t prepared anything yet. Fluid project next week have to present liao. Walao..... Suan le lar. Just do whatever i can do now.... Still relaxing now... Yet dunno what coming up next. Can’t change my lazy attitude in study. Make last minute preparation.... Burn midnight oil. Try to make something impossible. Hahahaha. Crazy i think..... Hohohoho. Struggling with #isostream, int main()........

2010-03-14T10:35:00.000-07:00

Long time didn't update my blog already. Feel like nothing to write about my life. Now life in here was like walking corpse, everyday repeat the same thing. Just sometimes got some special things. Hehehehe. Just came back from my four days holidays.Unfortunately can't go back to my home town, no ticket. What to do, two days before the holiday just told us that we get holiday. WTF, you thought the ticket to Kota Bharu easy get ar.... Sometimes I really jealous the other can go back if get holidays, see their family, friends. Of course, I get the chance also, but seldom. I really regret what i have done before, went for holiday when I get a long holiday. Went to see someone I give my hope on, but end up being throw away like rubbish. Useless. What for??? Better save my money rather than go to see her. Never mind lar, forget about it. Come back to my holiday. This three days was quite nice. Go walked around with my friend, watched movies. And not to forget, EAT. Penang was a place full of food. Hokkien mee, laksa, chicken chop... All was very nice. But, I end up with what... Gain weight. Haizz... Gotta keep fit after this. Hehehehe. The movie was quite nice, we watched Green Zone, more on conflict between two country and also Under The Mountain, about a twin trying to save the world from the evil. Maybe can watch more movie but our routine everyday starts at 12pm. Every night sleep late. Hohohoho. The last night at Penang, my uncle brought me and my friend to Batu Ferringi. A very nice place for vacation, a beach paradise. We went to the Hard Rock Hotel. I think most of you know about Hard Rock, right? I think it was a five star hotel. We was greed by the statue of the Hard Rock founder, a really fascinating design at the lobby, which shows the olden suit wear by the rock singer... A bar beside the counter, together with a band singing. Outside was a huge swimming pool with a bar. Go out further, a beach with white sand. But now very crowded because it was evening already. Some room was connected straight to the pool. The design was very nice on everything. I was thinking when will i get the chance to take my mum here. The day will come when I graduated and become.... No one know. We all will know when the time comes. Four days holidays finished in no time... Come back here and continue my life. This week will be a busy week as I need to complete my assignment plus a project. Together with two test which will be held on Wednesday and Thursday. Still can't get my mind focus on study. Hope that I can go through this hard weeks with my mind focusing on the study........

2010-01-21T08:13:00.000-08:00

Get the news on my holiday already. Very disappointing me. Haiz... Today, during the break, our lecturer came and tell us about our holiday on this Chinese New Year. Start on 11 February after class till 14 February... 14!!!! What the hell... 14 is the first day of Chinese New Year ler. Walao... Crazy meh... And furthermore, we gotta report at the Putra Hotel at Kuala Lumpur before 6 in the evening. WTF... But me and another chinese guy get the permission to arrive at Putra Hotel on 15 morning. Nothing much different. Haiz. What to do, we got Lab Practical on 15 till 19 February at UTM KL. SERVICE BEFORE SELF. Seems nothing makes different if i go back for Chinese New Year. What i can do is spend more time on my family rather than friends. What i can do right now is try to applied holiday earlier, maybe on 10 February. Still working on it. Hope will get approve. During the whole Chinese New Year holiday, i just available on the Friday only. Haiz.... Saturday going back to my grandma house, Sunday night take bus to Kuala Lumpur already. Hahahaha... I really dun have any comment on this.....

2010-01-20T19:59:00.000-08:00

Long time didn't write my blog already... Seems nothing to write plus no time to write it. Test coming all over for these few weeks. Busy studying and also playing games (when bored). What to do, the test occupied 20 percent of my final result. If take an egg, sure my result for this subject will be very bad. Then the pointer of this semester sure will drop. Then later on my PNGK will also drop. PNGK drop meaning that my chance of getting outta here is bigger..... Chinese New Year is around the corner, just left about 3 weeks like that. Before that, 7 of February, im going to KL for Lab Practical at UTM KL. Very happy about that. Sure beside from the lab, after the lab, holiday till Tuesday. But we get news that maybe the holiday till Wednesday. Nice to hear that. If till Tuesday, maybe will try to get until Wednesday. No matter what, i will try to apply till Wednesday. Because only Tuesday i can meet my friends at Kota Bharu there. Because most of my time spend on my family until Tuesday. Really cant wait till Chinese New Year holiday. At KL there, i will be staying at Hotel Putra. All the things there are free of charge. But unluckily there are not much accommodation there. The finest thing, we can eat as much as we want at a buffet style restaurant. Hahahaha. Our Lab Practical maybe until 11 February, still not sure yet. If till 11, maybe I'm going to Low Yat to service my laptop. Then 12 night just take bus back to KB. I just worry about where I'm going to stay at 11 night. So can't decide anything yet, because not much information I can get right now. Nearly one week didn't contact my "sister" already. Dun wan to disturb her, since she got boy friend already. It just a normal thing what a boy will do when a girl had someone messaging with. DO NOT DISTURB. Dun be a freaking light bulb that charge on others people generator. Hahahaha....

2009-12-15T09:18:00.000-08:00

Long time didnt write my blog already... Really dunno what to write after all. Really in dilemma now. Last time my friend message to me and tell me about many things a boy won't know about it... It seems i realize that i'm the one who are clapping my own hand... Finally, my question that i'm confusing all the time answered by her.... Seems that she just want to be friend and maybe become my "sister" only. More than that seems impossible... Long distance is one of the main reason. I also can't give her many things that the other boys can give to her. I can't stay beside her when she needed me the most, i just can message her or call her only. the other boys can take her to go shopping and accompany her testing all the clothes she like, but i can't. I just can see her once a year... Seems this kind of relationship won't last long if i still continued.... If i know her like most of my friends then its not a problems for me. Its a truth that a long distance relationship make us both suffer... Better for me not to start this and maintain to be a good friend and a good bother to her... Its my final decision.... Friends and bother sister only......

2009-11-29T09:54:00.000-08:00

One month already passed since he day she left here... Miss her very much. But what can i do?? Go to Indonesia to find her, seems impossible... Just finish my 5 days holidays. Not in the mood of holiday also, without her around. I just went back to my hometown. Luckily, the road was not flooded and i can went back without problems. At my house also didn't do anything, just took some rest and go out with friends. Holiday seems very short for me although it was 5 days but it seems i'm not in the mood of having it. I'm now going through one month already, suffer a lot without her around. Not in mood doing anything, just take some cigarette to make myself forget everything happening around me. Still gotta go through one more month without her. How i'm gonna go through it... Still i have to. Can't really message her a lot, it cost about 500 rupee in order to send a message from there to Malaysia. From here, i just need 40 cent to send to her. It was so expensive after all. So i didn't blame her for not replying me. After all, i'm still not a important person for her. But anyway, i just hope that she will enjoy herself at there. And don't forget to take care of your health. Hope to get reply from you soon. MISS YOU VERY MUCH!!!!!

2009-11-14T19:15:00.000-08:00

Finish exam already. Really happy enjoying the life after final exam. Result also seems quite ok, just B and A only. Happy about that. But tomorrow starting military, real training. Will be really busy and tired. But last few days really damm unlucky, bad things happen to me like hell. Seems i really can't be a Demon, doing something bad. Maybe its my destiny cannot do something that are bad. Two week already passes since she left here...... Seems nothing happen to me if look from the outside. But inside my heart, knives are stabbed non-stop... Whithout her around, i was like a empty body without a soul inside. Empty, lonely..... When will she coming back to here again. Im counting on the days she will be coming back here, 50 days more, about one and a half month. I really wanna ask why distance is always the hardest obstacles to break through for me to start a relationship? Sometime i also ask myself why im so jealous about the other people? After i see their picture, doing the things they like, together with the people they like...... Why can't i become like that. I also want to be together with the person i love, doing things i like....... Maybe its your destiny, some people said. Destiny can't be change, it already set by the God from the day we were borned and till our death. But some people thinks that we ourselves make our own way of living, decide our own destiny. Which one you think is true? I also dunno. But in some cases, we are deciding our own destiny, in some cases the God set our destiny.......... Thats all the world about.........

2009-11-08T11:56:00.000-08:00

Finish my Introduction to Flight exam... Feel free a bit. Coming up next, this Wednesday... Algebra. My English for Professional Communication just manage to get a B+ only. I expect will get an A- or maybe an A. But doesn't matter, as long as i didn't failed any subject and passed with B or higher. Just get news that there will be holiday on 24 November till 29 November. Unfortunately cant go to meet her. 7 days already passed since she went back there. Didn't get any news from her. Can't even contact her at all. Blame myself for didn't get her Indonesia phone number. I think i still can go through all these without her, but still i need her to accompany me.... Eat less than the days when she was around. I tried to study in order to make myself not to think about all these, but it seems study didn't make any changes. Still thinking of her... Huaaa....... MISS YOU VERY MUCH... When are you coming back??? I really need you to accompany me go through all these things. What i can do now is wait patiently...... Continued my training without her. Hope i can go through this two months.... Hoping that she will always in good health at there, take care.... MISS YOU.

2009-11-01T11:36:00.000-08:00

It seems i'm starting to feel empty the first night she left. This afternoon i called her before she get up to the ferry. The longest call i made with her. We chat about all the things. Really wanna record her voices before she left, but cant. After the ferry came, i just said to her that i will be missing her very much, so do her. She tell me that she will be coming back here at 4 January for the next semester. Lastly, i end the call by saying L*** You, but i dunno whether she heard it or not. 13 hours had passed, its the second time i feel very empty in my life, like the earth is going to stop spinning. Just now Ester find me and ask me whether i tell her or not, i said haven't. She ask me why, i just said i dun want to make the same mistake again. That time i really think that i should't act too fast first. The first time already failed, i dun want the second time to meet with a dead end. Tomorrow will be my Professional Etiquette exam. Just prepare a little only. I just know that my exam will end this 11 November, so fast. Military month is around the corner. Seems very weak to go through without her... 26 November we get 4 days holidays for the Hari Raya Haji. Planning to go to Penang. Service my laptop plus walk around at there. Want to go back to my hometown but seems no ticket is available already. No mood at all to go for the holidays... Without her, emptiness comes. Just can fill it with my studies........ Hope that i could go through this two months with patient..... Waiting for her to come back. Really miss you a lot.......

2009-10-29T11:58:00.000-07:00

English exam finally over.... Now can get rid of these books already. Now coming soon, Thermodynamic, this Saturday morning... Just prepare a little bit only. I'm too confident in myself already. Why would this happen? Maybe its my carry marks too high already. I really dunno whats wrong with me... After all, the English exam was quite easy. I thinks at least i can score a A- or maybe higher. Now just focus on the Thermo exam that is coming soon. Just now just call her to ask her about her exam today. She got three paper today. From morning till evening. I called her about 8 something. She told me that she could do well for two of the paper but another one she said maybe will fail. How could she fail as she already prepared? Maybe too much exam for a day. But i just adviced her and comfort her that maybe she could pass. The result haven't come out yet. Just dun worried about it. Then she told me that she already finished for this semester after today exam. What?? Seems i listen wrongly. But its the truth. She is going back to her hometown this Sunday afternoon.... Seems i got no chance already. Christmas, i tried to ask her whether she will be coming here for Christmas. Buy she said she wont come here. The next time i can contact her again was the next year already. How im gonna go through this two month of life? Military month some more. The day waking up her every morning, make sure she study, call her again and again... It was very nice. But never mind. Just two month, i told myself. But it seems i cant. My mind keep on thinking of her. After all, i dun have the courage to tell her anything. Its my fault. I really dun want the same thing happen to me again. I made the mistake before so i dun want to made again. Although i meet her before, not like the first case ( we never met before ) but i afraid the same things go wrong again. Maybe the time not yet come... I always told myself all this. But in some cases, if you dun appreciate the chance or take it, the others will. Chance wont come the second time. But i really dun wanna made the same mistake....... Can anyone tell me what to do?? I really confused now. Just left 2 days until this Sunday. Maybe can make some changes or maybe not. Its up to me now. What i can do is just write by myself in my blog. Seems things wont change after all. I dun have the courage to do it. The next two days will be a hard days, i need to focus on my study after all. This Monday coming up, Professional Etiquette... Didn't prepare at all..... Dun wanna think about it already, maybe im still not yet prepare. Study study study... Games games games... Make me forget everything.... Hope she will enjoy going back there and take care... Miss you very much.

2009-10-24T09:06:00.000-07:00

Final exam coming soon... Didnt prepare anything lui. Walao, crazy nia. Now just start do all the tutorial and then start read something. But still cant focus on the study yet... Dunno think of what in my mind. Many things already being earased in my mind, still i cant focus on my study. Haiz.... Really need to pull up my socks already. But i cant...... Who can help me? This semester seems quite easy for my to put my pointer on 3.oo and above if lucky. Maybe thats the reason why i cant study well. But still i need to prepare a lot, for the board. If get a bad result, then maybe will be kick out. Thats mean i also need to score a high pointer....... Today is Yee Sang birthday. Hmm... Call her the whole day already, didnt pick up also. Then later at bout 11.00pm call her again, finally pick up. She was celebrating with her family, too busy until cant pick up my call. Hahahaha. After that, i call my sister and start complaining my things here to her. Luckily she was patient enough to listen. Hahahaha. Feel free a bit after talk all the things to her. She was facing her final exam also. Hope she can study hard and do her best in final exam. Together we both gambateh!!! Score flying colour in this semester. Jia you mei mei!!!!

2009-10-14T10:37:00.000-07:00

Assignment assignment assignment... Hell hell hell... These were what i had been going through for these fw days. Really getting fed-up already. Plus test and quiz some more. Really drive me crazy already. Tired..... Luckily, my glider was done already. Thanks to my teammate, who did a lot without me. Really ashamed of myself, didnt do anything at all. Haizz.... Tomorrow will be our glider test flight. Thermodynamic test on 9am, quiz at 10am, test flight at 2pm. Wow, damm pack tomorrow. What to do, next week is going to be our study week already. All test must be done before tomorow. Final exam coming soon, really worried about my study. Havent start study lui ler.... How ar??? See the other one by one passing through me, im the one left back..... Hey, where is ur spirit when u just come in here, to score four flat, to be top student, best cadet... Where all the spirit gone to? Ask myself again, what was my ambition.... Really gonna start pull up my socks and catch-up all the dreams that i promised before. Although life was very hard here, but what can beat me? Myself, not the others........ Chance wont come twice, remember that. I should be proud of myselfget in here. I heard my Proffessor said before: the place im sitting, 100 of the others should be sitting on that place but didnt get to.... 100 people, not 10 people. Thats why i should appreciate what im having now... Better get start already before its too late.... Jia you.... Gambateh!!!!!! Dont think of others things already, it will comes when time passed.

2009-10-08T22:59:00.000-07:00

These few days have been busy going to hell.... Too much of problem already. What to do? Sometimes is our own problem, we cant blamed the others also. Maybe i gotta get used to it already. It seems nicer when we got hell, get fitter rather than stayed at the room played computer games, online, chatting..... Evening sports i also didnt played anything, i prefered to go for jogging. Nothings much changed these few days, just dammed tired but cant sleep either. I dunno why. Head was thinking of things, but dunno what im thinking about. Crazy, rite? The rules in here changes already, fail one subject will make you go to board... Its really getting serious already, i should make myself up already. Start to focus in study, do more revisions. I should let my parents down again and again. My dreams cant be changed since the day i walked into here.... I should be what im going to be, dont even thinks of things that are not impossible. Just think about my dream is enough. Time havent come yet to let the others know what im doing now. Time will changed all over.................. It just havent reach the perfect timing. Thats what i know.

2009-10-01T22:55:00.000-07:00

Today really bad lorx.... Last night didn't finish my english assignment, this morning come here just do it... Take some time also.... But my group was the first group, crazy... So i took some time to finish it. Until i forget to wake my sister up... Luckily i call her at about 10am, she already in class... Hahahaha... Finish off my presentation... Really boring, nothing to do. Just wait till my english class finish. Then start online, facebooking... Hahahaha... My friends all busy with the speech outline, im a lucky one because i already finish it.... Later i just went for lunch. After lunch really boring lorx. Want to message my sister but she can receive my message, i can't receive her message. Dunno it was her phone problem or my phone... Phone need money already lorx. Hehehehe. It about two weeks didn't message her already.... Start my class again now, finish at 5pm. Really jealous when i heard my sister is going to KL, when i will get a chance to be free like the others? Maybe still got a long time before that can happen... Gotta work hard for it lorx. Finish my three years in here first, now already nearly one and a half year already. Chasing my dreams continued.........

2009-09-29T20:31:00.000-07:00

Today quite unlucky... Early early already go to hell already. Hahahaha. Thought get to there a while only because im already in second year. Hell no, get to there about 10 minutes also. Bastard.... Later went to breakfast, just a few of us go to eat. Then all the things go smoothly until i reach the base. Today gotta bring my laptop here... Many assignment need to complete, report on glider, then english speech outline...... After get here, thought everythings was fine. But NO, we get to hell together.... These time was quite a long time, about half and hour we went to there. What we didt wrong were didnt went for breakfast this morning. No choice, is our own fault. Hahahaha. Quite nice also. Long time didnt went there already, become very unfit. Went there make me fit a little bit, hahahaha.... Always very enjoy after went to there. Crazy already kua...... Now online in class, finish all the project already. Just waiting to print it out and pass up.....

2009-09-26T14:23:00.000-07:00

Finally.... Holidays end. One week doing nothing but play games and go out with friends all the time.... Luckily i got a new laptop and kept on playing with it. Wow.... Really dunno how im going to deal with it when i go back in there.... Everyday online and play games... Academic sure drop de lorx... Haizz..... Test coming on tis Thursday, took back my books also didnt study at all. Lazy.... Now at Shahab Bus Station online.... Find out she finally got online, but already fall asleep. Hahahaha. She is dealing with her assignment. Pity girl. Gambateh yarx!! Start my study and training again, dunno when will get holiday. Christmas? Going to Penang... My cousin's wedding ceremony..... Maybe not going.... Hahahaha... Go KL again, no money already lorx...... Hahahaha.... Seems dissapointed with myself, the whole holiday didnt do anything useful and meaning to me. Gaining weight already, never mind. Training start again, will become thin again. Dun worry...... Didnt get her message for so long already, maybe is my phone problem.... Money again...... Haiz.....

2009-09-21T22:45:00.000-07:00

Just come back from KL.... Bring along with my new laptop. Quite heavy ler.... Dell Studio 1550 T6500 2.1Ghz... 4G RAM... 320G HDD with the nice ATI Radeon 4570 512MB graphic card..... Just not statisfy with the processor only.... Never mind lar... The next time just buy a better one. Few days ago go to meet my sister.... Hahahaha... Waited her for about 1 and a half hour at the KTM station... The funniest thing. She didnt saw me wait her beside there... When i 1st saw her... Wow... Cant imagine how cute she was..... She came along with 2 best friends, Ester and her sister and with another guy... Quite nice also. We went for lunch at Km Gary.... Luckily, my sister ordered for me.... If not.... Later after ate, i just took the resit and went to pay the bill... What i didnt expected was. My sister stand up and went to the counter and requested to pay the bill with me. I just ignored her and paid the bill.... Hehehehe. Later on we just went to walked around in Mid Valley and The Garden without anything special happen..... I just found out that my sister was quite a girl that like to shop a lot..... Hahahaha... Luckily the guy accompany her for the whole shopping..... Me? I just walked around nearby there..... Hahahaha... Being a frozen hill was nice also. Luckily my sister got care about my feeling, sometime she got walked beside me and asked me something. But for sure, what i don't like was she kept on asking me to talked to Ester.... Hahahaha.... After few hours of shopping, my sister went to buy some facial things... I just helped her to paid the bill..... The best present i can gave to her. Hahahaha.... She kept on giving me back the money but i just put into her plastic bag.... I told her that the next time we meet each other will be next year already.... It was time to go back already, i walked them to the KTM station... It was raining that time. I just found out that she afraid of lightning.... Hehehehe.. Normal things for a girl.... I was so happy that she came out to see me, i dun want anything more than that.... Because got something blocking me, but for sure i like that thing.... Im not that kind of person who want others to being alone...... Building my happiness on someone sadness if not my principle.... My principle.... Rather myself alone then other being alone. Hahahaha...... Now at my hometown already.... Playing my new laptop.....

2009-09-18T00:35:00.001-07:00

Holidays start yesterday... Just nice to get holidays. Hahahaha. But my bus was on 12am. After get my weekend pass, me and my friends move to City Plaza to walk around. Its was nearly 6++pm like that. After that, we go to KFC to break-fast. Not really also, because we just wait till the malay start ate then we just ate. The matter of manner, right? After that we head to Pacific, another shopping mall and walk around at there. We went to look for the gloder project and ask the shop about our plan on the glider. We just left about 3 weeks time after coming back from Raya holidays to finish off our Glider. We all blank about it because we dunno anything about it, how it looks, what was its measurement, what materials.... Wow, really dunno how to produce a Glider. After that, we made our move to bus station. We still left about 3 hours before the bus come. So, we go to cyber.... For sure DOTA....... Hahahaha.... After that, about 11.45pm we went to ask about the bus and the saler said the bus delayed. WTF..... We waited nearly 1 hours before the bus came. Sleep the whole of my journey.... Too tired already. We reach about 7am this morning at Pudu Bus Station... My friend and i went to take LRT to my uncle house to take a bath before going out again. But unluckily, my friends all put aeroplane on me.... Haizz.... Lonely again. It was not the first time i left like that..... Never mind, im used to it already. Just walked around in Plaza Low Yat and Times Square..... Seeks for laptop... Seems none of the laptop suits me. ( The price and the specification). Hahahaha.... My demand to high already.... Win Soon asked me to get a Acer if want cheap and high specification... Im still thinking about it... Maybe tomorrow go to Mid Valley and looks for a better one.... Tomorrow going to meet my sister already, still dunno she goes alone or with friends..... Will contact her tonight. Now just play games in cyber to make time pass.... Feels like im a stupid guy.... Sure lor. Hahahaha.....

2009-09-15T22:19:00.000-07:00

Holidays coming already... Just left 2 days only. These few days just busy with my academic studies. Everyday got class except for yesterday lar. Yesterday was Military day. Luckily physical training canceled already because of CO parade. But i really want physical training ler, feel myself starting to become fay liao. Oh my God.... Gotta do exercise every night to make myself fit again. Hehehehe... Now at night also very free, damn boring. Dunno what to do... Just squeezing my head doing the undone tutorial... Going to become crazy if continue like that. Never mind lar, holidays is around the corner already. Going to KL tomorrow night.... And then reach at Friday morning, plan to meet someone whom i didn't see for two years already, the person that sat beside me during Form Five, that always bully me ( not she bully me, I'm the one that bully her )...... Wai Theng and her boy friend, A Lam ( always my good friend ). Then the next day.... Saturday. The most important day for me. Hahahaha... I'm going to meet someone special.... We are going to celebrate each others birthday together. Hahahaha... That was what i promised to her on my birthday last month.... Hmm... Plan to buy something for her and give her a surprise. But i still confused and dunno what to buy for her.... Can anyone give me suggestion? Can wait meeting her, it was my first time seeing her. Hahahaha.... Eveything didn't change at all, just myself changing... Hope that i can forget everything that should be forgetted and remembered what should be remembered...

2009-09-12T13:17:00.000-07:00

Its Sunday again.... Just left less than one week to my Raya holiday.... Didnt sleep since last night. Hahahaha. Playing the mafia war and watch movies. Yesterday after class, we get outing from 12.30pm till 6.30pm. But i get a longer outing... Because of the Saturday prayer. I went for a movie at Jitra Mall before heading to Alor Star to go for praying at Wat. After pray, me and my friend go for dinner and walked around in Pacific... Our lecturer give us the project for Introduction To Flight last few days, a Glider and ask us to work for it. So, we go to the RC shop to ask for the details of the Glider. How it should be made, what shape, what type of materials... Its seems really difficult to make a Glider... After that we just go to shop and walk around in the mall. At about 9pm, we head to the San Micheal Church to wait for the transport to come to take us back. What i didnt expected at the church was i saw Siong Kuang... One of my best friend. Hahahaha... I think the last time i saw him was at Chinese New Year. He is going to start his training after Raya. Quite nice ler. But i still have one and a half year to go on before my dream can continue.... Just gotta be patient and wait lor..... Then i message my sister and ask her what was she doing... After a few message, she didnt reply me already... Poor girl, maybe she fall asleep already. She went to KL and walked for the whole day already, cant blame her..... Hahahaha... Quite tired already, i also want to sleep. Zzzzzz. Hope that today will be a fine day....

2009-09-10T20:53:00.000-07:00

What a boring Friday... Got class from morning till evening. Haizzz... Tomorrow still got class lui. Walao, gotta become crazy already.... Last night got function at my place here. And did you know, i'm one of the waiter. Hahahaha... Serving foods to the people. But luckily, i escape to my friend house later after serving foods. I go to use my friend laptop to chat with my sister.... Hohoho... She seems really want to meet me... Hahahaha... Just left less than one week until i go to KL to meet her. Really nervous ler. Then she tell me that she always wake up late. So i just offer myself to wake her up this morning... And you know what happen this morning, i was on my English class and it was 9am already. I took my phone and go to the toilet and called her to wake her up. Call for quite a long time and she just pick up... Hahahaha... What a nice wake up voice... Really cute ler my sister... Then later about 9.50am like that, i called her again to make sure she is awake... Luckily.... She awakes already and ready to go class. Hahahahaha.... Still continue my class. Wanna play games later on... My favourite pass time.....

2009-09-08T21:26:00.000-07:00

Another day passed.... Still in dilemma, but nice that it reduces already. Make myself busy is the only way to let me forget everything. Its nice that i start to spend more of my time in study. Suddenly feel that I'm going to finish the 3 years in here. Still got less than 2 years time for me... I need to score as good as possible to get into the place where my ambition continues.... Now new rule already by the new people. Pointer below 2.75, grounded to go already... So i need to study more. As the 4 and 5 semester is the most hardest among the others....Haizzz... Really hope that i didnt fail the subject last semester. If not I'm ontime already. Never mind, still got 3 more semester to catch up. I think i can do it.... What i really hope now is no more things getting into my head already... Now just need to forget things...... And start to remember my study, family, friends and also my special sister... Hope that she will study well in this semester. I heard that she did badly last semester... Never mind, we both study hard together this semester and score flying colors. Ok? Jia you..... Gambateh!!!!!

2009-09-04T13:02:00.000-07:00

Its a boring night... Luckily someone i dun want to online didnt online at all... If not im going to do something stupid again. Haizz.... Luckily my sister accompany me for a while just now. Seems im not alone lui. Nice to have her around message with me... Still got class today, replace the last holiday we get for the H1N1 cases. Now here not very serious already. My sister there also not that bad, thank God.... Cant sleep at all, i donno why. When i get into bed, my brain just start to think of everything happened before. Haizz..... Really annoyed me. Luckily class start at 11am tomorrow, still got 3 more hours to sleep in the class. Maybe classroom is the most comfortable place to me to rest my mind and not to think of everything i had gone through. Why should i still thinking of something that not impossible? Why cant i just look into the future? I also dunno why i just thinking of all the things that had passed... Mum told me before, if can take the things up then you should can take the things down... But it seems i cant. Im trying very hard already... Doing all those stupid things just to make me forget everything...... Haizzz.... Sigh again and again... Who should be blame? Im the one....... Not her, no others.

2009-09-03T23:04:00.000-07:00

Wat a boring day... Nothing 2 do. Still trying to do something to let me forget all the things about her. Just now get a long sleep, hope that will forget something. Nice that after i wake up something already miss from my mind already. But just a small part only. Still got a lot more. Its nice that just now get news from my sister that she is going out with me this Raya holiday... Birthday celebration... Hehehehe. Want buy somthing for her.... But don't know want to buy what. What girl like ar? Maybe a teddy bear ba... Oh shit.. Teddy again. No.... I don't want remember somthing again... Its hurting my head...... Forget forget forget. Just forget can make myself a little comfortable.

2009-09-03T15:55:00.000-07:00

It seems that things didnt change at all. Why? After last night message, i found out that after all... Im the one who are clapping my hand by myself. I seems does not make into her heart... All the things just a story... After a few days, it had be forgotten. It seems i didnt left any memory in her heart, none of our memories she remembered. Im who after all.... Just a normal guy who havent meet her at the real world, just in fairytales only. Maybe im the one who didnt understand her at all... Distance is the most hardest wall i should break, but i cant.... Last night i tried to forget what i had gone through with her but i cant. Maybe i should give up hoping she will come back to me. I tried but i don't want. But her heart not belongs to me, what to do? Maybe.... Or maybe no maybe.... Its impossible after all. She not giving me a chance at all. But i won't blame her. Its her life, i can't control her. Tried to erase all our's memory in my head... Still trying............

2009-09-02T23:26:00.000-07:00

After reading her blog... I found out something catch my eyes. I tried to read it over and over again. Hopefully found something that can overturn the situation. But it seems nothing change. Things over is over. Why should wait till next life? Why cant thing be change and return to where it started..... I really hope that. Maybe next life i cant find u already... Although i would try not to forget u. But still i really hope that we still can start it all over again... Why things should be like that? I really confusing now... i really want to open up my heart and see at the back there my heart belongs to who... But still i know, my heart still belongs to her forever................ Love you, could we start it over again. Can you give me one more chance?

2009-09-01T20:19:00.000-07:00

Nasional day just pass. Seems nothing for me after all. Few days ago just get her new handphone number. Its very nice that she still reply my message... Hahahaha. Get the news of Raya holiday already. Its from 17 Sptember after training till 27 September. Almost 10 days of holiday. Now i planning my holiday to KL to meet someone special for me. One of them is my "sister", we are going to celebrate our birthday together... Another one is secret. Hehehehe. Now trying to date her to come out. Still in progress, most likely she will come out lor. Not hoping too much, effort come 1st... But its seems the view of her on me changing a little bit already. Not so cool like olden time. So i got quite a chance lui. But still effort 1st. Hehehehe. Today seems very free a litle bit, but still got test. Haizz... Study first.....

2009-08-27T19:27:00.000-07:00

One week pass already... It seems that nothing change much. My heart still thinking of something. It seems that she came back from her homwtown already. Its nice to know that she still doing fine. Thank God. Nothing happen these few days. Unluckily, national day didnt get holiday. Only the one with 3 pointer and above get 4 days of holiday. Who ask me didnt study hard last sem... Who should be blame.... Nvm. Im now waiting for the Raya holiday. Starting from 18 of September till 27 September. Going to KL 1st before going back to my hometown. I really hope that she could come out with me at KL.... I just wanna say to her that i really miss her very much.... Haiz. But what i hoped surely wont get... Maybe i should work hard for it, but i dunno how to start it all over again. She a bad girl, cant say bad... She just naughty a little bit only. But i just l*ke her...... Haiz... Sometime i make myself busy to let me forget her for a while but it seems no used. It just last for a while only. Reading novel seems didnt help much as the Twilight novels are the novels that she introduced to me..... Now im forcing me not to think about her. But i cant.....................

2009-08-20T22:43:00.000-07:00

These few days seems to be normal to everyone not everyone also... But for me. I duno why i sigh a lot these few days. Something still confusing me around in my head. Three months already passed, but i seems cant forget this feelings. One month, can say not enough one month, just about 3 weeks the relationship making me cant forget about it, the feeling... The way someone care about me all the time, msging me, call me... Why this happen? Am i still cant forget her? Why? I tried not to face her or do anything related with her but it seems my heart still thinking of her....... Was she still fine? Eaten? Sleep already? Boring? Why am i still thinking of all these things???? Why? Why? Why? Can someone answer my question?

2009-08-17T20:50:00.001-07:00

After 6 days of holidays.. I finally come bek from Kota Bharu. Continue my soldier life in here... Kedah. Haiz... National day cuming. But most likely wont get holiday, juz get outing. Btw, nvm lar. I see my mum n my family ady. Its quite nice going bek there. Now juz waiting for my next holiday.... Malay Raya. Hope tat we will get more than 10 days of holidays. Hahahaha... During my holiday, i revisited my school. Meeting all my teachers from the one tat teach me since form1 till form5. Quite nice after 2 years didnt see them. All of the teachers say im lucky to get inside there. Actually its true. At first really hard, but still i get through it by myself. Thanks to my mum support. Rm900 per month, its really more than everyone else in this world... At the age of 19... Who can treat his own family eat wor??? Using their own money that change from blood and flesh... Hahahaha. Think bout it.....

2009-06-18T05:54:00.000-07:00

Few days ady didnt write my blog... Tis week really busy. No time at all. Time tat i got is use to rest 4 tomorrow activities. Wow, quite a tough week. Until 2day i juz get some time to write my blog... Haiz, life is like tat ady lorx. Everyone should undergo it, but juz da time not yet cum. Really boring although my timetable are really pack, duno why. I juz found out tat my phone didnt ring at all, juz got da call from my mum... Maybe im too annoyed ady lorx until no one message me. Hahahaha. Wat to do, life still carry on. Cant blame anyone, cuz tis is my destiny. But im proud to be in here, PRIDE. Who know tat.... I alwaz laugh at da people tat give gift to his girl friend or treat his girl friend eat. I will ask them a question only..... Whos money r u using?? No one will answer my question.... Kakakakaka. Duwan write too much. You all will know when da time come.

2009-06-14T05:20:00.000-07:00

Few days ady didnt write my blog... Quite busy sometimes. Yesterday got outing but i cant go out as im dutying. But i got a chance as my frenz say he wan cover me. So i go out at 12pm to city plaza without permission. All da way to there was done by fast rate as i duwan to get caught. Hehehehe. But at da bus stand there, i waited bout one hour before da bus came. After reach city plaza, i straight away go to da gift shop to bus something, As i have promise someone to do so. After buying things, i straight away go bek here. But i took bout 3 hour frm her to city plza n then cum bek here. Not very nice timing.
As for 2day, all my frenz cum bek ady. But we didnt get outing. Da whole day juz stay at my room doing my stuff n senior's as well. After lunch, i juz sleep throughout da evening. Quite a nice sleep also, as my stuff have been done. Tats all for 2day. Quite a boring day also. Juz like someone say to me, tis is ur choice. Nvm lar, i get use to it ady...........

2009-06-12T06:46:00.000-07:00

2day another boring day... Juz sleep da whole day. I thought tat sleep can solve everything, but it wont. After i wake up still da problem unsolve. Really annoying me rite now. Got 2 take care of senior, still the one i want didnt understand me well. I also duno, maybe im too childish, too naive ady lar. 2day quite good also, 1st got go to da library. Duno y 2day will go there. Maybe cant sleep well lorx. Haizz.. Can someone help me solve my problem?
Nite, i cant sleep either. Brain r confusing around. Y tis happen?

2009-06-11T08:52:00.000-07:00

Another boring day.....
2day we spend da whole day sleeping n eating only...
Task to task r given to me like chain reaction.....
Wow... Damm busy later after cum bek frm training...
Senior's assignment, shoes, uniform.......
Nvm lar... Use to it ady...
Hope tat 2molo will be a fine day...

2009-06-10T07:20:00.000-07:00

2day didnt do anything also, boring day. Time passes as we all sleep.
Wat a boring day...
2day apply for holiday, got some chances but still not yet get. Hope tat we can get holiday as we stay here also nothing 2 do.
After cum bek, our super senior ask us 2 handle da junior tat juz cum.
Handling them is not easy job as many things got 2 make sure.
Now i juz noe da feeling of being a senior.
Haizzz.....
Da time we r junior is da best although it is very hard, but we learn thing a lot.